The deadly confession

I had to... even I'm not willing to

Coz I've hurt him

Damn.

Just cause of my own lie, he got

so hurt. And I had to tell the

truth just to make things clear..

And now, it's not even getting 

better from before :(

mid sem break 2012

a bunch of new things are happening

in my small life these days

that includes...him. the one that's

making my days so colorful, yet painful 

this is just a beginning of a new chapter 

in my love story thingy I think :P

he's super nice. I can fall for him

in any time without any hesitation

but he's too great for me. I don't

deserve him. I can't even picture

myself standing next to him

I got nothing compared to beautiful 

them. But actually, the most important

thing that blocked me from falling for

him is... TRUST

I don't trust him. I kept thinking that 

he's a player.

Thus, he's not the one that

I should seriously thought of :]

Got a blast

we went out in a group

the silence was deafening earlier

but then when we all get together

a bit more, he began to act natural

his true colors are not bad

gentleman. haha :)

I admit it

Yeah, I admit that I like him
and there's nothing wrong with it

So I'll be liking him for the time being

AND
 I'm not hoping for anything

I never hope that he sees me

Please, no. I won't let it happen

This is weird, cause usually I would like

my crush to know how I felt,

BUT

this time, I'm comfortable with this
secret admirer thingy 

:)

tarawikh prayer

I cried for the 1st time in my life right during

reciting my solo tarawikh prayer alone

I missed the opportunity to perform it

together with other Muslims at the surau

and it somehow strikes me deeply :<

o Allah, please forgive me. I hope u can

give all of us guidance to be able to

perform this great tarawikh after this

; o;