GoMiNam, RIP T-T

last night, we went shopping until 9pm

right when we're home, i went straight

upstairs and went online at gaia

late at night, i went to get some food

at the kitchen

Gominam was quiet that night. there's no sound

of her playing the toys

i didn't take a glimpse at her and went to bed

tomorrow morning, i went to check on her

she was sleeping at the corner of the cage

i called out for her with cute voice like i

always did when i called her

she didn't catch up to me like usual o;

then, i shook her cage a bit

still, she didn't move

something crossed my mind

just then that i knew that she's...dead.. T_T

*my eyes are watery while writing this*

i should've go see her that night, for the

very last time

kuso.... i'm so terribly sorry Gominam

for letting u be in the misery of death..alone..

sorry... that i didn't have the chance to let u play

the toys that u like; that i didn't gave u much

food like usual coz i was always with gaia; that i

didn't have the chance to change ur bedding,

that i didn't gave u much dried strawberry which

u liked sooo much T_T

sorry.... sorry... sorry... T_T

what's done is done... if i can turn back the time... if u show

any weird sign that ur leaving me... i'll give u sooo

damn much attention Gominam.. T_T

wait.. i think u've shown me some weird

signs. it's just me... that was blind and

being ignorance to u lately -_-

i'll love u till death. no more pet for me

it'll be only u. forever and ever Go Mi Nam.. I love u T_T

someone new? o 3o

he's always been by my side

acting cute sometimes *jiggles*

his presence helped me to forget about that

uh-so-annoying-and-ignorance guy

am i falling for him? ._.

not yet. it's still too early >.<

but thanx for lighting up my dull

life little by little :3

i finally get over him

thank God *w*

maybe cause he always :

1. Ignored me

2. Talked to other girls and romanced with

them right before my very eyes -__-

he got my heart broke into pieces everytime

he did that

it's damn annoying... and i'm tired of this -.-

i didn't realize that as time passed,

there's hatred for him that grew within me

o;

thanx for all the "nice things" that you've done

to me all this while boy

and

Thanx For Making Me Worthless In Your Eyes

thanx

that's my status at gaia

why? cause he gave me a present (in gaia)

simple and cheap

but it means everything to me

see? how stupid i am

i knew it means nothing to him but...

awh... u know.. when people are in love, even

the smallest thing that he did for u means

like universe :>

though he didn't know that i fall for him, i'm

still being stupid. damn = ~=

HIM AGAIN

i still can't get over him

i tried to poof from him, but it lasts

for 3 days only

D;

what the heck is going on with me!!

this is making my head go round

and round

and he kept going on with his nonsence

talking~ but i just follow his flow -__-

cause i really3 miss him T-T

i hate myself....and hate him...for making

me miss him -.-

Go Mi Nam

my brother went home last night

from Shah Alam with his fiancee

but what got me going half crazy was

the longing for Go Mi Nam!

that's my pet, hamster ;D

oh!! how i missed Go Mi Nam since she's

been kidnapped to S.A by ablong. LULZ

and it seemed like she's missing me too!

cause the moment i put her home at the

floor, her nose was like sniffing out from her

cute pink penthouse

then i touched her nose * awh!!!so cute! *

out of the blue, she ran out from her

penthouse, and gasping for my hand

aww~~~~ and she quickly climbed to my

hand when i put mine in front of her

Go Mi Nam! u're always so cute! i LOVE u!! :D

sem 1 exam - ended *so do him*

Alhamdulillah~

a bunch of thanks to Allah and my

friends for helping me during our

ups and down in studies

i could answer the exam II questions

easily

and not to forget about Abg Syaraff who

gave us final tips at the eleventh hour

thanx soooooo much! ^o^

oh, and....him... yeah, the thief of my heart

i decided to forget him cause... i think

i'm wasting my time towards him

he didn't even notice my feelings i think

or he noticed, but pretended like nothing

is rolling in my heart

maybe because...he got nothing for me

that's why. and i understood. so, farewell :)

" letting u go is hard.

but it's a must.

so i won't die.

bye "

:D

yay~ everything's back to normal

it was just a misunderstanding

he wasn't mad at me

just the internet thingy

:>

*went on studying happily*

actually, *sleep* >.<

nuuu!!!

magosh....

i don't know why but i think he's mad at me

we're talking about our old times in gaia

and suddenly... a topic went out

and he's like... mad..? or sad..?

idk!!!

then i said sorry...and he went off9

o.o;

this seem's like a serious matter..

i...don't like this... he's making me crazy

why is he taking that so serious?

i'm so damn puzzled now

please don't be like this... i'm truly sorry if i

hurt your feeling

throw me your anger instead of silence T-T

again..

he did that again

=.=

yeah, THAT again

M.I.A

even his gaia wasn't on..

and tomorrow is my last paper...

my heart isn't at ease now that

he went poof-ing

; ~;

music 1 exam - OK!

Alhamdulillah~!! i managed to answer all the

question even with my sweaty hands

lulz

thank God Asraf didn't call out for my name

and asked me for the answers -___-;;

credit goes to mie and sya~ (ciksyapunyer.blogspot)

without them, i can never perform this great

love u guyz!! ^o^

blog make-up

i put some blusher on my blog

how does it look?

ok? haha~

floating pink blusher ^.^

love it <3

M.I.A

he went missing for about 2 hours i think

and i already missed him like hell

-.-

eff... why am i turning out this way...?

mhm...i guess it can't be helped

i will never get over him after what i've gone

through today

well...daaa? i didn't spam him or chat him for

two days

i thought i was doing just fine until he suddenly

poofed (deactivate acc)

and i was like " what the hell is happening?! "

-.- awh.... i'm so pathetic D;<

mhm..

it's Friday and it's so boring!

last night, the unknown guy endlessly asked

for my picture

-.- the efff...! he's no one to get my pic

and he's so....idk...i think he's one of a

kind of a bad-guy

i can sense it. but i didn't follow his flow

just wait till i'm home...i'll dump him straightly

block his number. he don't deserve me ;)

i text him back just because i'm soooo boring

no one to be texted T-T

BM is oooooover~~~

ok, now it's over for BM

only left PJ and Music

magosh...i answered a question carelessly

T-T

efff.....!

i hope it wouldn't affect my grades

-.-

friends

ok~ now i've decided to pull off my feelings for him

why?

because...i think he got a girlfriend

oh well, it's a logical think that a handsome

and cool guy would have one

and it's gonna be weird if he don't have a gf

i think we'll be good in friends mode :)

:(

i thought we'll be having a huge and non-stop

conversation once he's here

but i was wrong..

i got so much things on my side 2 be said

it's just...i don't know where and how

to start

and i felt like we're kind of apart now

everything is starting to change...

how i miss our old time ; w;

yay!

he buzz me at fb chat once he's on9

xD

and i was like yyyaaaayy! lol

i got tons of things to throw at him

but the slow internet connection ruins everything

-___-;;

er...progress?

man....he's not on9 for the whole day

and i missed him like hell

omg...how i hate this kind of feeling

it's making my life miserable

-_-

when he's on9 during night, the conversation

seems to have some....progress....?

awh...idk!!! idk if he's just playing around with me

either it's just a joke or what

but i just go with the flow, without taking it

as a serious matter >.<

him

the unknown guy is now gone

but the thief of my heart is still here

i'm trying my best to avoid anything

that would make my heart race towards him

putting on too much hope will drive me

to agony someday

so, i better be prepared for the worst

i've had enough of this -.-

in the mops

i hate how myself is right now

i was thinking too much about him..

hoping for something that is not gonna happen

people are right

when we're too happy, tomorrow we'll be in the mops

rite...-.-

what am i thinking?!! just who am i to him??

nothing i guess...just an acquaintance

so, *giving a big beatch slap to self*

WAKE UP! T-T

pfft

that mysterious guy texted me again

and i was being an emo with him

let's see how far will he go for this childish game

>3

exam hell week

humph....it's the week of exam..again

how i've forgotten the feeling of sitting for exam

after the school thingy ended

;3 but i haven't started studying hard yet

n an unknown guy called me last nite

nah...oldies i think. n trying 2 get 2 noe me

what the foo... n i was fooling around with him

like...giving him such ridiculous infos about me

xD

at first, i thought dat he was my collegue but when i

tricked him with the exam for next week, he seems to be so....

BLANK? ._.

lolololololollll dat was soooo fun~!

nyahahaaaa~~~

earphone~

FOUND!

Alhamdulillah...thank God..

my class monitor kept it for safe

yatta~~~ ^.^

missing earphone.... T-T

waaaaaa ToT

my dearest earphone is missing!!!!!

i already had a bad feeling about this when my

friend kept borrowing it from me...for one week...

i was thinking of it.." what if it's gone missing?"

but i was too negligent to think of it carefully

when i was in my Gaia world the moment

they borrowed it

and i only realised it was missing when i packed

my belonging to go home for holiday..

but i felt suspicious of someone. WHY?

BECAUSE one of the person that is responsible for

my missing earphone went on ignoring me when

i called out on him

it's like he's avoiding me... what the.....

i hope Allah will show me the way of truth..

Gamelan practise

i got 2 learn new instrument tonight~

yay~!!! and it's so much fun!

very....mhm... "SYOKnye!!!!"

yah, like that. can't describe it

u gotta feel it for yourself

then only u'll know how fun it is

idk....the passion to play gendang just popped

out within me out of the blue

nina said it's hard 2 learn, but for me it's just ok

and FUUUUUUNNNNNN!!!! *waves* ^.^

GAIA + VIOLIN WITH SUSU

FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!

i got 2 play gaia today~ after class ended at noon

i flied away to the world of my own during

the alomost-an-hour gaia gaming

bwahaha~~~

then i got a date with Susu Lim at evening

oh well~ violin class date :P

coz i haven't go for violin class almost 2 weeks

and i really3 miss it! >.<

that's why i went 2 her room and learned violin

thanx Susu!! XOXO

assignments? haha~

now, now.....

assignment time is going to an end

how glad i am

because i can enjoy my one week holiday

happily with Gaiaonline.com and violin

but one thing is gonna make my life go

round and round....

exam week is coming after holiday.....

awh.... =.=

Jump Rope Match

finally it ended~!!

phew~~~~ it feels soooo GREAT

my group (E.C.X) was supposed to be in 5,

but a group disband and two of the members join mine

it's Asraf and Chun~

we only practised seriously at the eleventh hour

and guess what?

suprisingly, we got 2nd place! O.O;;

i was like... "What??!"

Asraf went crazy with his damn loud scream, while

we just burst into laughter

that was soooooo ridiculous

coz our formation was such a mess (not really, but...yeah..)

but maybe it's because of our unique probs and ideas

(well... it was Asraf's actually) ;)

and the champion was the group from our class

sooooo, peeps! stop thinking that we, the students of

music department can do nothing except

playing instruments

we even got the highest marks for gymnastic practical test

^o^ i'm proud to be a music student!

looooooootttss

wooho~ i'm back 2 this blogging ceremony (what the...?)

LOLOL

sorry, but i've been very busy lately

subject tests, gymnastic practical, and assignments

and all happened in one week after another

now, the only things that left are TMK

assignment and jump rope match

guess what?

i heard that the rope jump match will be canceled...

YAY!!!!!!!

and i just bought a new broadband 3 days ago ^o^

finally~ but i haven't play Gaia online with it yet...

all for the purpose of assignment...FOR NOW

yeah, next week it'll be the heaven week for meeee!!!

YATTA!!!!!!!

Mr. A?? hurm..

i think i'm moving closer to the words " forget"

yeah, it's true. i'm on for a new mission

that is : forgetting Mr. A

and i'm about 80% to reach my goal of 100%

idk why but...uhm,, how to say this..

it's like..i'm tired of having a one-sided-crush >.<

and i think it's time for me 2 move on since

i have no more crazy heart beat everytime he's around me

yay~ right now, it's time for me 2 concentrate on my studies

ganbatte!

Iznee Rehanna Hassan

oh well, i was having a fun, long phone talk with her last night

an hour and a half. phew, new record. LOL

haven't meet her for quite some time

we shared everything that happened

around us in this few months

thanx iznee for still remembering me

love u buddy! ^.^

. . . . . .

ugh.... what a compact life i'm having right now

everything is just so messed up

with the assignments that never ended

and the sick me, then ok, then sick again

=.=

and i haven't been able 2 buy a nice, great broadband for myself

T-T

i wanna play gaiaonline so badly that i think i can die x.x

thank God that the assignments are keeping

me away from the dreadly gaia-playing intention >.<

i'm....back? lulz

haven't blogging for quite some time

well....i've been busy with the Sambutan Hari Kemerdekaan ke-54

it all happened in 10 days

tired but so much fun ^.^

and i bought my first english novel for the 1st time in my life

hella PRICEY

=.=

looks like i'll never get the chance 2 buy broadband for now

awh..... T-T

with tons of assignments 2 be passed up in 1 week time

me, my life = so pathetic -.-

ex...?

it's a creep when your ex suddenly trying to be kind to u

haha

never thought that he remembered our childhood old times

idk what's his true intention

like...he kept bugging me at fb chat for 2 days

then, he kept on being quiet for the next day

until now

what? trying 2 play tug-of-war?

well, i'm not the kind of girl that will fall for the same person twice

even if he's damn hot. nah....

Mr. A will always be the first in my heart :D

Qiyamullail

it was my second time doing qiyamullail for my entire life

we performed solat tahajjud first, followed by solat sunat tasbih

now, now...that second one was damn challenging

early in the peaceful morning (4am)~

with the damn heavy eyes... e.e

i survived for the whole solat sunat tasbih but failed on the last SUJUD

i bend down to the earth, not coming up for quite some time

>.<

i could feel my body moving right and left

LULZ

i came 2 my senses n looked around without reciting the salam

gah....what a shame Dx

it was my EPIC FAIL -.-

going good

we didn't interact much today

well, it's good because i was hoping it to be this way

so that i will remain to be myself

:)

keyboard - rock guitar duet

it was such a blast

i was playing his keyboard and he suddenly did the accompaniment

aaaaahhh~~~

my heart jumped out to the rhythm

but then, i awoke from the oh-so-happy moment

right after the song ended,

i walked away...

to keep my heart safe and sound

from even a single uncontrolled heartbeat

>.<

NOTES TO SELF : he's taken. keep this feeling away

Distance, oh distance

i'm trying 2 keep my distance on the track with him

can't lose my cool and get busted

but... yeah.. whenever i tried 2 be apart from him

God pulls us closer

awh.....

don't lose track, Arina! he's just a buddy.

so...yeah! a buddy will always be one

not more than that :)

oh happy2 day ~

happy day of me~

i wore a different hijab style today

it's one of a kind of an express hijab

coz i was lazy to iron other tudung =w=

i thought he didn't realize it..

but opposite thing happened!

jeng jeng jeng~~~

he complimented me! yay!

he said it when i wasn't paying my attention to him

i heard it, but still i pardoned him

n he changed the topic~ saying about his lil sibling

haha~

Music Dance Club

i joined the first practise today n it was damn cool!!

we were a bit blurr when kak Jamie suddenly played The Taxi

by SNSD and asked us 2 dance according 2 the beat

any dance could be

but i was blank n didn't do much >.<

when she started the coreography lessons,

the class became more heated up and fun

i was burning with spirits 2 dance which i haven't in quite some time

yeah, it was fun and i ended up being tired but happy ^.^

Heartbeat... awh... -..-

my heart started 2 pound frantically when i see him

it wasn't like this b4

i didn't know when it started

arrghh!! stop it!! he will remain and can only be a buddy!!

i've 2 stay away from a taken boy (him)

please...just accept this bitter reality already, Arina Mastura

awh.....i hate this kind of feelings

coz it'll leave me in agony =..=

puasa time~

it was the first day of puasa yet i couldn't join them..

T___T

i always got the happening feelings for the 1st puasa

...only this year... awh....... =.=

but still, i'll go and BOMB the bazaaar with my fwends!!

ahhh!! murtabak, air soya, kueh lopez~ here i cooooome!!

hacked ;3

my avi got hacked again on gaia

=w=

just when i was about to do good deed to nazz,,, awh....

well, it's ok~ i can catch up to that small amount in no time

just wait for holiday... or wait till i get a broadband (wireless here sucks)

now u've made me burn with spirits to play gaia again

THANX A LOT hacker :P

come back~

i had a sudden feel that Mr A is drifting away from me

D: oh noooo~

did i get busted from hiding my feeling? Dx

nah...i don't think so...

after we became like so close buddies yesterday... awh...

i knew that he'll never be mine but,,,

being near him as a buddy is better than slightly acquaintance =)

shocking news

my buddy's bro passed away yesterday

the news came out of the blue

she was sobbing when she called me, telling that her bro passed away

i felt sorry for her. i wanted 2 comfort her but i suck at it

really2 suck...

i hope that i can always be by her side n give her strength 2 move on

=)

i'm 15?

LOL... a salesgirl mistaken me as a 15 year old girl

funny~ coz i thought my face looked matured.. -.-

but yeah, i don't mind it coz i felt young with that

HAHA

Mr. A

Mr. A...is a dashing gentleman ^.^

why? because... He ..

1. asked me to take shelter while he get the cab for us

2. paid the cab fares

3. helped me 2 buy the LRT tickets

4. asked me 2 sit when there was an empty seat in the LRT

5. gave his seat 2 an old woman

6. accompanied me until the bus station

7. texted me asking whether i was already on the bus or not..

Phew~ that was one long list~ i've never met someone like him

how lucky his girlfriend is to have him

who is Mr.A? well, of course he's just a friend of mine... =)

duhh..

i met with an annoying people when paying colgate at guardian

=.=;;

the admired girl of payung

i met her tonight during al-Mulk

and yeah, i was startled coz she's an ultimate rival

beautiful, with fair skin and charming eyes

any guys would fall for her

i'll never be able to beat win over her

so,, yeah, i'll just be a watcher instead of rival

now i know why payung is really into her

well, if that's how it's fated to be,,,then i'll accept it

=)

umbrella a.k.a payung

it's all happened during PJ time this morning

our class joined together for PJ with Mr Zul

we played a game like...grouping ourselves in random

first grouping that Mr Zul wanted us to do was according to shirt color,

then gender, class, and hometown.

the final grouping was that 8 people in a group

i didn't know which group to go so i randomly went into a group

and guess what? i was in a group with payung =w=

the more i wanted 2 avoid him, the more God put me to him

but yeah...the game was fun coz... well, it's a secret~ shhsh...

but sad things come after happy things

true..

i was eavesdropping payung's conversation with my buddy after PJ

and heartbroken after knowing..

that...he's into a new girl of our batch...a cute n pretty one

my rival....LOL.. nah...i'll just watch him from afar

coz dat's how we were fated 2 be ;w;

an umbrella story~

it was raining heavily

i walked under my big umbrella, alone

a few boys were crossing the road ahead of me

all passed, but one approached me

" can i share ur umbrella? "

OMG! i was startled because of his cuteness <3

the next thing i knew was we were walking side by side

n he suddenly hold the umbrella for me

* O * i felt like i was in a movie shoot LOL

we chatted a bit...b4 he said thanx n walked away...

-THE END- >.<

tiring day..

idk y but i'm so tired today

maybe it's because of the PJ during afternoon class -.-

monday got ko-ku, tuesday, wednesday, thursday got PJ

the only non-tiring day for me is Friday~ heaven~!

n of course saturday n sunday too :P

i'm used to live at the hostel but i'm still trying 2

adapt myself to this new...idk...lifestyle? LOL

IPG Kampus Ilmu Khas, Cheras

it's been 2 weeks since my first day here

i felt so thankful 2 God for letting me be here

the seniors r so nice, unlike my prev schools

they even greet us (juniors) first, which is a rare thing seniors will do

my classm8 are nice, which are mostly chinese with grade 5 above owo;;

n we got piano in the class T.T (tears of joy)

how lucky i am 2 be here :)

Howl's Moving Castle ost

The merry-go-round Of Life.

This is an easier version than the real one.

But for me, it sounds perfect :)

Can't wait 2 start this piece.

p/s : I do not own anything!

UPSI...sayonara..

i didn't get the offer 2 UPSI...

a bit dissapointed but not much

i knew this will happen due 2 my last interview there

nah~ i'll just pray for the IPG coz that's my real goal :D

Katekyo Hitman Reborn! ost - Hibari's Theme

I really3 love the anime & songs. They're all soooooo cooool!!!

OMG!! I can't describe how magnificent it is. The most

goosebumps song for me is Hibari's theme, Fuuki Iinchou. But

man... it's so hard 2 play!! The speed is crazy~ It's

gonna take all my lifetime 2 learn this piece.

But I don't care, coz I'm sure I can play it someday! ^.^

p/s : I do not own anything!

Winter Sonata - From The Beginning Until Now

I learned this piece for my dad coz he loves it so much.

Just trying 2 be a good daughter~ lol. Took

me 3 days to learn :)

p/s : I do not own anything!

Interviews...!

16.4.2011 - UPSI's music interview

i didn't do it very well coz it was my 1st time attending an interview

i was nervous to hell!! my hands were both cold

i couldn't sing well- off pitching =.=''

taku...i never thought of singing 4 interview! -.-

TODAY - IPG's music interview.

i've done better! yay!!! thanks to the previous interview

i gained experienced n prepared to the end~ lulz

during the amali session, one of the interviewers wanted me 2 speak in english

reasons : coz my mom is an english teacher. -.- yare2....

luckily i've gone through a full english interview b4 (for librarians in form 4)

so, he was not lucky enough 2 scare me tho xD

n i sang well too! omg, i didn't believe it! it didn't go well for the UPSI but this ._.

maybe i am fated for the IPG? lulz. ahahha~

Devil Beside U ost - Li Xiang Qing Ren

I love the drama, I love the songs ( especially Rainie's songs ).

It's very soft & calming. Love it! Took me

3 days to learn :)

p/s : I do not own anything!

Yiruma - River Flows In You

I was influenced by Fatin Najwa to learn this piece,

coz she played it heavenly cool!!! :D Took me 3

days to learn, but ain't as cool as her yet.. T.T

p/s : I do not own anything!

J.Pachelbel - Canon in D (C version)

Influenced by Diyana Adibah 2 learn this cute song.

Dedicated to Iznee Rehanna for her birthday~

It took me 2 days to learn :)

p/s : I do not own anything!

J.Pachelbel - Canon

A simple version of Canon by Johann Pachelbel :)

p/s : I do not own anything!

Car Driving

i had my 1st time driving experience in my life today

uncle Ah Su only teached me the basics

after i get my L license, then only he'll teach me everything

this is what i've long awaited for!

my car broke down for 3 times today

(luckily, not in front of the boys) ;D

i had some difficulty with the clutch pedal

well...my leg is not long enough for it T.T

but still, i could push the pedal *trying so hard*

surely, i can't wait for the next lessons~! ^.^

Ujian Undang2

i did the exercises a lot so that i wouldn't fail the test

n yes!!! i passed the test with flying colours~!

haha~ 45/50 in 9 mins

i could've done it faster but it's ok

the internet server was down so we had to wait for hours b4 doin the test

then, for the 1st time in my life... i ate at a stall

it was dusty with cars passing along it x.x

but as my stomach growling painfully with hunger...i ignored it all

=.=''

1st Driving Lesson started!

the day that i've been waited so much finally appeared!

yup, Driving Class~!

it's Chagya's B-Day too! Happy B-Day OPPA~

i met with my not-so-close old school fwendz too

gosh....we got nothing but 5 hours of boredom!

it's the ceramah thingy that took us that long

too long that some dude n dudette dozed off (except me) ;D

lucky for me coz i brought my songs with me

K-Pop songz that will always make me chill out :D

n i met new person which i couldn't tell her age by her face

kak Noredah, 26, married, have a child, n working

well, she looks like a form 5 student though xD

oh, n a boy snapped my pic but forgot to turn off the flash =.=''

i juz ignored him ;D