Elianto Red Ginseng Mask

Lately, I'm having a slightly dry
skin around my cheeks area.

I think it got something to do

with the St Ives scrub. -_-

If this happen again, I'll definitely
stop using it.

Sooo, here's the solution for my cheeks

dryness: Elianto Red Ginseng Mask.

I actually got it for free two years

ago. Good thing that it still can be used ;)

It provides my skin with total moisture

and I still can't believe it though.

*Rubs cheeks* Yeah! It's still soft

and moisturized ^_^

SS501 - Love Ya

This song captured my heart since the

first time I listen to it. Well that was two

years ago actually. LOL

But five days ago I moved my lazy butt

to finish this piece off. Whee! Yatta~

It sounds better if you don't fully stick to the

 score. I mean, improvising the left hand

 would be great. :)

P/S : I do not own anything!

St. Ives Apricot Scrub

So I bought this facial scrub last

 night and have been using it twice.

The first use does makes my

skin feel supple soft and smooth.

Awesome!

I hope this will help me to get

smooth and even skin tone. ^_^

Another Haircut

LOL yeah, yesterday I did it on my

own and today, my sis asked me to 

layer her hair too! 

This time, I did it properly. Better 

than before.

Most important, I found a SHARP

scissors. Lucky her anyway ;)

And her hair looks great. What else?

I'm proudly satisfied with my work.

LMAO 

DIY Layered Haircut

In case some of you didn't know it

yet, but DIY stands for do it yourself :)

So yeah, I layered my hair, myself this

night and it turned out to be a horrible

but great experience for me. 

Well of course, what else do you 

expect for from a blunt scissors? LOL

I was even thinking to stop right away

after I realized that less hair were

being cut out. It's BLUNT! Damn it...

But since I've started, I won't stop

 halfway. Took me an hour to finish
it after all. Whew~

I never knew that layering my very own
hair would make me sweaty. A little.

Sooo my hair turns out to be just fine, but

I'm definitely gonna try it again some other
time with a SHARP scissors. For sure ;)

Oh, not to forget. Thanx Youtubers for
all the awesome tutorials~! 

Kids time

I met someone from my kids

time. Well, he used to be my

crush when i was nine. LOL

And wow, he changed so much

over these few years!

From a player to a... I don't know..
pious maybe. A good looking
pious man with a glowing face. 

People do change after all :)

Mr. Romeo

Tanjoubi omedetou ne anata.

Suki dakara :)

Thigh Workouts

Heya readers~

So I've been working out for a
week, focusing on the thigh areas.

And guess what? I could see the
 outcome yesterday~ Yayy!

But since I got only a week left
before school's starting, I have to
double my workout for better results.
Yeah! 

So this is what I've been doing :

And also a little bit of this:

In addition, u can also dance to

Gangnam Style. Well I think that

the dance is great for thigh :)

No regrets in trying these out. I'm

still working on it and will post out

the result soon.

Till then, later~ Oh, and Happy Holes!

Heartstrings ost - You've Fallen For Me

The drama is so great and mostly 

filled with awesome songs.

Well of course, this is one of the most

funky song among them. Love it!

P/s: I do not own anything!

Hurting.

As the title says.

Yeah, it still hurts to see them

communicate.

To think of it, maybe I'll have

to live this way forever. -.-

Nameless post

Heya~ it's been a while isn't it?

So here I'm officially announcing that

I'm finally free from any love disease.

LMAO.

Well that means I, er...me and him 

have nothing anymore. *even friendship*

Yeah, I decided to live without him. 

I did walk away, and he didn't come

after me. So I kept walking :3

Actually he DID make an effort, but

that too small efforts won't move

anyone's heart even for a bit .__.

So why should I stop walking over his

small effort? Duh I'm not that easy.

I need someone that's afraid of losing

me, and he's not the one.

-peace out!-

Going good.

Hey2 my dear readers! What's up? :D

Sorry I haven't written in for so long.

Cause I'm too damn lazy to write about 

my complicated love life anymore. HAHA

But yeah, I'll tell u a bit of it. No worries~

So we're going good, and just get

through another damn shitty fight 

yesterday. Haha.

I did give him a really hard time in

comforting me. Pity him. >.<

But I'm really glad that he's still by

my side even after all these harsh

fights. Thank you. T-T

Damn. He managed to make me 

love him even moreee. Ugh.. -..-

Disappointed

Hell yeah, that's how I felt when he

didn't trust me. 

This time, I acted differently than our

past fights.

I mean, I couldn't really tell if this is

a fight or what.

Cause I just acted differently from before.

I didn't throw tantrum, or harshly telling
him any words of anger. 

It's just... Mhm...Well, maybe I can tell that this

is how I acted in a state of disappointment. 

I'd rather stay quiet and not saying

a single thing. 

And again, he came to me, trying to make 

things better.

I'm glad that he's trying to save our 

friendship. Thanx :')

Old

Sometimes, stories that are not even being
told anymore can shake off your world.

That's what happening to me now.

He saw the old comments of me and an

old crush of mine. Oh come on...just comments.

He didn't make a fuss but hello? It's

not like I just get to know him yesterday.

I knew he was disappointed, but he's

not in my shoes. As I said, we're only

FRIENDS, not more than that.

No need to go all deeply emotional.

Know what? I'm tired of all these things

that finally will make me look like a bad girl.

I'm done. Yeah, u are totally right. All
 problems came from FB. 

So the deactivation of my FB account 

will keep me away from any problem.

For the time being, I guess this

is the wisest decision to be done. :)

Pride

It's been 4 days without any chat

or texts from him, yet I felt nothing.

Did I miss him? Mhm... I don't think so.

Did I feel lonely? Mhm.. Yeah, he always made

me feel that way since the Merdeka event.

Did I feel angry? Well... Of course. How could

he left me for days without anything to be

heard from him? Duh...

Did he expect me to be the one texting

him in the first hand? Uh huh..

NEVER

I will only text him first when something

bad was going up between us. Lulz :P

During the 3rd day, I felt like missing him

so much, but when I heard a new story of

him and his serial liker...I was totally mad.

And eventually, when my anger took control,

the part of me that misses him suddenly
fades away.

So in the end, victory is mine~He finally
sent me texts in the evening of 4th
day. Haha~ I win!!!

Sweetest UKJK of All Time

Ok, so what's with the title?

Haha :P

UKJK is something that we 

call as fitness test. The marks

are included in our assignments.

We did it every semester. This time,

it's the 3rd and the last one cause

we won't be having any UKJK 

anymore in Degree studies starting

next semester.

And here comes the best part of

this semester's UKJK.

We have about 6 check points

to be finished. And guess what?

He approached me every time

I finished each check points.

Had little talks and cute fights. I

think I was smiling all of the time 

today, and it's all because of him :')

End Of The Fight

I finally let down my pride for him.

Yeah, I was being too harsh on him

when I let out all of my anger.

Only then I realized that I was not

the only one hurting.

I was hurt because of his lies, and he

was hurt because of my words of anger.

How guilty I was afterwards... But I somehow

manage to put our emotions back on track.

In the evening, our class had kayak lessons

and hell yeah, we caught glimpses

of each other. Whee~

It goes on and on until the last half 

an hour of the lessons, which is when
he finally approached me. Haha :P

I was just sitting at the side way 

and he suddenly appeared from nowhere

and end up sitting next to me.

I was a bit nervous at the beginning,

 but our little talks somehow soothes
me :')

The 6th Fight

Yeah, another fight. I know...I know..

We never stop fighting. Tough

beginning isn't it? 

This time, it's his fault for trying

to mess around with me in fb chat

Acting like he's my classm8. Well 

yeah, I didn't notice it earlier.

But later as I re-read our chat, I 

noticed that it was him, not my buddy.

Hell yeah, I was damn angry but 

I kept myself shut for not wanting

to create any storm.

Yet, he did it once more. This time

it's my buddy that trying to act

like it's him in fb chat.

Da heck? Think I'm so stupid? -_-

Sudden Thoughts

I noticed a girl that is a regular

liker on his wall

Well I'm her friend too but she

didn't like my posts not even once

It seems fishy when she's there 

every time his post is up

What makes me even wonder 

is...she even dare to be his first 

liker on tagged pics

Da hell is this? Is she having like

some sort of crush on him? Duh~

I suddenly have a thinking... What will

his answer be if some other girl 

suddenly confess her love?

" I'll try to love u."

I think that'll be it. Betcha.

The Fights

I don't know how many times have 

the fights get between us

Maybe this is a tough starting for 

our relationship. I mean, friendship..

But we manage to make it through
out of all the teary fights ^_^

I heard people said that

"all things are difficult before they're easy"

So i guess this is it. I have to endure 

all of our fights and keep holding on :)

So, I'll just list out the reasons on our 

fights. haha :P

1st fight : I lied to him.

2nd  : He didn't reply to my texts.

3rd : Someone confessed to me

yet he didn't fight for me.

4th : Found out that he texts 

his crush.

5th : I told him not to call

me 'pretty' coz it reminds me

of his crush which he used to 

call 'pretty' too.

Wow...five fights when we got

nothing on each other.

I don't know how many fights 

will both of us get in IF we

suddenly had serious relationship.

haha :P

Thank You Allah

Thanx so much, for making him

to get over me

I will totally feel guilty to tell

him that I won't be able to

love him like how I used to.

So now, I will continue to like

the one and only guy that

I miss so much :)

It's a late confession :(

This is what just happened to me

People that I used to like so much

came and did a brave confession

Only if he did that long time ago...I won't

hesitate to accept him

But now, everything's different

I've already moved on, yet he finally

came...at the wrong time -_-

People always said to love the

person that love u, not the person

that I like and admire

Mhm.... Please guide me dear Allah..

I felt so helpless for someone is

 already filling his spot in my heart :'(

Kinder

The thunderous storm is finally over.

How I thanked U so much Allah.

I know, things happened for a reason.

And U're the only one to know the 

reason well.

I hope U will guide me through 

the light.

If I'm wrong, please correct me. If

he's wrong, please made him realize it.

Cause I'm hoping for him to be a 

great leader someday. Amin :)

p/s: I couldn't bring myself to eat the 

kinder bueno.. awhh >.<

The deadly confession

I had to... even I'm not willing to

Coz I've hurt him

Damn.

Just cause of my own lie, he got

so hurt. And I had to tell the

truth just to make things clear..

And now, it's not even getting 

better from before :(

mid sem break 2012

a bunch of new things are happening

in my small life these days

that includes...him. the one that's

making my days so colorful, yet painful 

this is just a beginning of a new chapter 

in my love story thingy I think :P

he's super nice. I can fall for him

in any time without any hesitation

but he's too great for me. I don't

deserve him. I can't even picture

myself standing next to him

I got nothing compared to beautiful 

them. But actually, the most important

thing that blocked me from falling for

him is... TRUST

I don't trust him. I kept thinking that 

he's a player.

Thus, he's not the one that

I should seriously thought of :]

Got a blast

we went out in a group

the silence was deafening earlier

but then when we all get together

a bit more, he began to act natural

his true colors are not bad

gentleman. haha :)

I admit it

Yeah, I admit that I like him
and there's nothing wrong with it

So I'll be liking him for the time being

AND
 I'm not hoping for anything

I never hope that he sees me

Please, no. I won't let it happen

This is weird, cause usually I would like

my crush to know how I felt,

BUT

this time, I'm comfortable with this
secret admirer thingy 

:)

tarawikh prayer

I cried for the 1st time in my life right during

reciting my solo tarawikh prayer alone

I missed the opportunity to perform it

together with other Muslims at the surau

and it somehow strikes me deeply :<

o Allah, please forgive me. I hope u can

give all of us guidance to be able to

perform this great tarawikh after this

; o;

. . .

damn. I was nearly found out

gotta be careful from now on

-.,-

It's starting back

yeah... that one thing is bugging me 

the love thingy. I'm falling down again

arrggh! It's all his fault for stepping

into my empty life

I like it when it's empty... I want to 

feel the peacefulness again

Yet, he came and slowly I began to

like him.. or is it love? -___-

I knew he's into someone, but why

can't my heart be strong?

I learned to be strong towards someone

else, but finally I fall for this new person

. . .

emptiness strikes

ow yeah

now I learned 2 make my heart empty

avoiding all the love that I nearly get

involve in

and this made me feel so peaceful

thanx Allah for making me in this

good condition :)

I hope this will last long until someone sees

me as his Mrs Right. hee~

hmmph..

why is it when i'm trying to push u 

away, u're coming closer to me.

please, it annoys me. if u did that

back then, i'll surely be jumping

to the cloud nine now.

but, uh huh. not anymore. u're

already gone in me. there's nothing

left but hatred and annoyance.

people said that i deserve 

someone way better than u. 

and yeah, i'm holding on to their

thoughts. i'll be waiting for someone

who will appreciate me more than anything :)

Secret Garden ost - That Woman

Such a heart feeling song. Every time I listen to 

this song, it reminds me of the ups and 

down love life of Joo Won & Ra Im... T-T

The singer, Baek JI Young even portrays the 

emotions successfully on stage ; o;

p/s: I do not own anything!

It's over

Yayyy~ I'm finally over him

Haha. Fast isn't it? U see, the safety precautions

that I took worked really well.

So now I can stalk him everyday without

any heart feeling 8)

And I can see that now, he's running over

my karma 

Oh wow. Now he'll get to feel the torment

that I used to feel for him

U can wait for the girl. Yeah. Wait till u die

and never see me. 

Cause I'm no longer there for u. We're 

crashing. Let's be like we used to be:

classmate stranger.

I'm doing great :D

So here are the safety precautions that I took

to maintain the good shape of my heart

and stop if from bleeding over again.

1) Stop stalking their fb.

2)  Unsubscribe them.

3) Go off9 to him on chat.

4) Close the news feed box.

* so that I will not see anything that he's doing*

And now I felt so peace. Their lovey dovey

comments surely tear my heart apart

the last time I saw it.

That was when I decided to take these actions.

I don't wanna bleed every time I'm fb-ing.

This feels so damn right. Chill ^_^

again.. uh..

I'm facing it again, over and over

This is just not going to an end

I saw their chat (sorry, but it was in news feed) :b

And knew something,,, a heart broken thing 

I'm ahead of her in knowing him

But yeah... I take it as..we're not meant for

each other

Tears brimmed when I stalked further and saw

that..most of her pics were 'like' by him

So it's proven now. Bye2 romeo 

Sorry cause I ever love you :)

mid sem break

mhm... I used to like semester break so much.

but now since I fall for him, I don't

want semester break to happen.

T-T

because we'll be far apart, and I 

can't see him everyday like in class..

sob3. but nah... I'll take that as a

challenge to myself

usually, my crush on someone will 

eventually stop when we didn't

meet for a moment

so... I am wondering if he is just a minor 

crush, or a true crush that will make 

me go mad during this mid sem break 

haha. we'll see about that ;)

misunderstanding

haha. it's just an epic misunderstanding 

whee~~~! 

she's just an ordinary girl to him

the way he told me about her seems like 

she's kind of annoying to him

the bad words uttered by him along

the story were uncountable

haha. so it means that... I can still like him :>

because he's no one's private 

and limited boyfriend 

lololollll. 

now I regretted (a bit) for throwing

all the things about him to

the dustbin.. v.v

apparently, he got someone..

I really didn't know about this until the moment

that I stalked his old FB posts

And found out that...he gave a girl a red rose on behalf

of their new friendship

It's on 6th Feb, but I didn't think that's an old story

They might have been contacting each other all this while

And I'm just too stupid to think that he loves me

We just have been gossiped for a month and I already

fall for him

The way he used to treat me made me felt that I'm

a someone to him..

Seriously... why did my friend told me that he loves me. urgh..

Now that I fall for him, I have to endure all this heart 

broken pain...again.... -_-

he raged me up,,,again..

It's nothing's serious actually

I don't care even a bit about the fucking sleep thingy

But it's the promise. He broke his promise

And not even a single "sorry" came from his mouth

Funny how a word can make me fall apart

 

Sorry seems to be the hardest word to him

He's such an egoistic guy -_-

But the more I hate him, the more I miss him... damn..

crush? buddies?

my heart started to beat crazily again

every little time that i spent with him

made my heart thumped frantically

yah, i know, i knowww

it's always me that started to feel the... idk...

crush thingy? -..-

the feelings grow stronger each day 

and guess what? I..EFFIN..HATE..THIS

why can't my heart be at ease for just a moment?

i mean, for at least a month... urgh..

hate crush. it's making me go insane, craving for him

more and more ... 

AND I DON'T WANT TO TURN MY BACK ON MY BUDDIES JUST FOR A BOY -.-

heart break *it never ends*

i thought we can be more than just friends

he's so kind, and sweet

but i guess it's me that's taking it too much

yeah, i fall for someone easily

yet, i forget that someone easily too

i'm trying to face the truth right now

it's hurting me badly these few days

so i guess this is the end~ 

a fine companion

had finally come to fill up my empty life

he's one of the same type as me

the one who likes to use emotes in pm

and he's very kind :D

i hope our friendship will last long

^_^

apology accepted?

he, who once hurts me deeply

had now come

and seek for my forgiveness

but he's using a third party

what the... i would surely accept his apology

ONLY IF he'd be a gentleman by doing it

face to face

but now.... it's not happening that gentle way

should i, or shouldn't i accept his apology? v.v

no more hopes

gahh

it's all ruined in a day

the guy that i was putting all my hopes

on had disappoint me

i just don't know...if i did wrong somewhere

in our conversation

but he rarely text me the the next day

and he went dead silence on the fb chat too

=w=

i was about to call him, but...nah.. i'm a girl

i wasn't supposed to do that at the

first place, right? -.-

so...i believe my mr right will come...

sooner or later.. i will just wait =.=

another new guy

so there's this guy last night

added me up on fb and after a few chat, he

asked for my number

idk why, but i felt comfortable

chatting with him. so...yeah, i gave mine o.o

no harm done~ just to fill up my boredom of

looking at my dead and full of silence handphone

-_-

he texted me. and call. and text. and call .-.

the convo was like we're on a debate D:<

cause he likes to counter on me eg.

when i talked about k-pop

and like usual.. guys don't really into k-pop stuffs and

when i said this, he said that, and that, and thaaaat

i did the counter attack for sure >:D

but yeah, it's fun. not like the unknown ganu guy that's

so boring and "miang" -_-

new song completed

i hate to be a newbie but now i'm a guitar newbie

and i love to be one ._.

learning this whole new guitar thingy

makes me in cloud nine *o*

cause my cool expert guitar addict dudes and

dudette are all around me

and makes it easier for me to learn guitar ^.^

so far i've made it to 3 songs~ Thousand Years,

Carta Hati, and the latest one *just now* is Tanpa

a lot more will come afterwards ^o^

New sport shoes~!

aww~ u read the title already

and yay~! it's a new Nike sport shoes

kind of look like that

but it's blue-black with white Nike logo *u*

and super soft inside it

i'm so in love with my new shoes~

and can't wait for gym class. lololol xD

Guitar~

so~~my dad just bought me a guitar

whee~~ *jiggles* ^o^

it looks like a 'gitar kapok' from the outer side

but who knows? it's pricey O:<

and the sounds are great *u*

i learned Thousand Years by Christina Perri

for all day long

until my left fingers got all bruised up

but i'm not stopping! cause it drives me crazy x.x

i just can't stop once i get a hold of the chord

HEAVEN~!!! *u*

Bro's Wed

ok, so my brother got married last night

and the wedding ceremony is today~

whee~~~

i got a cute sis now 8D

Selamat Pengantin Baru ablong~!

hopefully, i will get a niece soon soon lololll >w<

the umpteenth heartbreak

i've been gone for a while and now i'm back to blogging

idk, just didn't feel like blogging ;D

put all the fault on gaiaonline tho

seriously, gaia gave a big impact to mylife

i have crush there more than real life

and got lots of gaia heartbreak too

i even do my 1st confession there

*about 2 days ago*

and got rejected xD

BUT.... i was a zombie for about 5 hours only

and then i'm back to the normal me

wtf. i guess that's just a random crush

cause i was easily healed ;D