crush? buddies?

my heart started to beat crazily again

every little time that i spent with him

made my heart thumped frantically

yah, i know, i knowww

it's always me that started to feel the... idk...

crush thingy? -..-

the feelings grow stronger each day 

and guess what? I..EFFIN..HATE..THIS

why can't my heart be at ease for just a moment?

i mean, for at least a month... urgh..

hate crush. it's making me go insane, craving for him

more and more ... 

AND I DON'T WANT TO TURN MY BACK ON MY BUDDIES JUST FOR A BOY -.-