.

Something to ponder upon.

Expression.

Maybe I don't cry,

but it hurts.

Maybe I won't say,

but I feel.

Maybe I don't show,

but I care.

We just have our own

way in expressing ourselves.

:)

Fighter.

"I'm not a fighter.

But I'll fight for what I love." 

H o p e

Trust.

This month has been tough.

I hurt him. He's deeply hurt.

I know. Yet I stood still. Hard as rock.

Ignorance. Pain. Too little to reach 

me with plain words of human.

Yes, he's bleeding. The nasty scar

was cut open. He is dying.

Indeed.

Yes I know.

Ignorance.

Putting that all aside, I

stood firm. Thinking that I could

stay on living the way I am.

But hey, I'm still searching the 

right way to keep this still.

Fade.

Too hurt that he's fading away.

This time it's difference. If I don't get

a hold of him, he'll be gone forever. I
feel it. Yeah, so damn strong.

Scared. 

Yes, I thought I could live

without him. 

Wrong. 

It was all wrong. I realize it. Yeah.

So I get my final grip on him.

Don't go. Please have faith in me. 

I'm trying. Yes, I'm trying so 

damn hard on living our new life.

Way of living our love life

the way to not opposed to His rules.

Because I heart you way too 

much that I wanted us to enter Jannah

together with our pure clean self. 

Please, have faith in me. 

We can get through this. Together.

Faith.

Blank Space

So it's gonna be forever

Or it's gonna go down in flames

You can tell me when it's over

If the high was worth the pain.

☔⚡⛅

Road

Dear Allah..

If this is Your test on me upon 

choosing Your road..

Then I will accept it.

If this is Your way on showing

me the greatness of Your love for

Your beloved slave..

I will also accept it.

If this is Your way on bringing

me closer to You as I always asked..

I will greatly accept it.

Let my love for the things other than

Your love stay hidden in anyone's eyes.

Help me bear the pain,

for no one understands the flame 

in my heart except You.

Allah.. please show Your mercy

upon us.. 

Make us understand things

that we don't even see with our eyes

and our ears. Let it reach us..

For You are the greatest planner,

and I will keep on living this journey.

The day for me to touch the
rainbow after a long rainy day
will surely come.

Amin.. 

Journey

A new light. A new chapter. A new beginning.

It was all started because of him.

Getting step by step ahead because of 

Him. Yes, Him the Almighty.

Dear Allah, thank you for this

pleasant gift, for this bitter sweet journey.

Make me stronger in seeking your love.

Make him love you more than me.

With You everything is possible.

InshaAllah.. :)