Long time no see

Yeahhh long time no see dear

sekaip! *Skype* lmao

This time, our skype session end

in like four hours only. The record of

six hours is still in our hand. :P

Sooo his room mate came like out

of nowhere, and my sweetheart was like

turned into his serious looking mode.

Under disguise? haha ;)

But right when his room mate 

went out for stuffs, his sudden change

shocked me. lololl. 

There was like this heavenly

mode came out of his face and his

stare changed in a blink of an eye into a

loving one. Hee c:

Also, he kept smiling all the time

until we end up our skypeeee.

 I'm not gonna post his cute

smiling-for-no-reason face here cause

it's mine and for me only. Guhuhu.

Reason

I believe that everything happens

 for a reason. Absolutely.

We still got a long way to go.

Things happened so that we'll be

prepared for whatever kind of 

future we might encounter. 

I'll have faith in Allah's plan :']

Trust

Take years to build, and only

 a second to break.

Guess now I'm falling apart, 

bleeding, and yet trying my best 

not to stumble too much in life.

No one is worth the blame, 

cause things just happened.

Stay strong, and have faith in

everything that Allah have for me

 cause He knows best.

:)

Nikagetsu

Two months already. Thanx for the

wish dear. I never thought you would

say it in the first hand  :')

This two months might have been

filled with tears and arguments, but hey

good things come after bad right?

Out of all the fights, we came out 

stronger and even manage to colour 

our path with joyful happiness. 

Thank you Allah.. May You bless

our journey and keep us together 

until forever :']

p/s : You're beyond perfect c:

Unknown

I did give him a hard time again...

Uh... I don't know why but I just

happened to take things seriously and

being thrown away in silence anger.

I was trying damn hard not to treat 

him coldly and I manage to. I was lying

all the way with cute text message while

I was unknowingly hurt inside. 

It's my first lifetime experience to ever

 get involved in this confusing heart 

thingy. Girls are complicated after all..

Also, he's trying so hard to understand 

me being like that because of some

girl stuffs after having some talk with my

bestie. Ahh kawai desu! <3 p="">

Haze

It's so hazy. My body felt so weak

and tired after the morning class.

I even fall asleep during the lectures

after a long time haven't done it.

Ugh... I hope this hazy days will

end soon and the sun will shine it's

sparkling light endlessly like how it 

used to be c:

Grateful

I just can't help it, but I'll think of him

whenever I listened to a heart warming

song anywhere, everywhere.

And out of the musics that I play these

 days, he is always there in my heart.

Only then I'll be able to play the 

piece wholeheartedly.

I used to have my music dull and 

empty. I hardly felt anything towards any

songs that I play. All was torn apart by

a guy that broke me into pieces.

Gladly, I somehow manage to experience 

the indescribable feelings of having the music

in my heart once more after I met you.

Thank you so much my dear :)

The Change

Absolutely true. 

I tend to think negatively in a blink

when I think someone didn't act the way they

should. Negativity everywhere D:

But with him, I know I shouldn't behave

that way. I never should cause right now he's
very busy finishing his final projects.

So I need to stop acting like a brat

and support him when he's in need. 

 It's very hard to change this bad
habit of mine, but I have faith in myself.
I can do it! :)

Compilation

Wow, didn't realize that I've left my

blog for quite some time.. o.o

I got lots to be written here but hell

yeah, since the college re-open I got

not much time to write.

Instead of playing games, I'd rather

jump on my bed and sleep for how long

that I wanted to. Lol.

Too many things happened, but 

the most miraculous one for me is six

hours of Skype-ing him. Whee ~~

 He showed me a box of souvenir which
he already bought one for me. And guess
what? It's hella pricey. What the... -.-

He should use that money to eat as
much as he can instead of using it for
nothing. So stubborn D:<

And one more, he wanted to help
me improving my in game char so badly
that I nearly ended up sulking. Only then
he stop and let me be.

Please, I'm not a pro gamer or even an
awesome one, but I'm trying my best to
 prove that I can stand on my very
own feet till the end.

I don't need to be pampered and
showered with anything that can make
me undergo life easily. No.

Holding on to my pride and never let go
is just who I really am, and I'm proud of
myself. :)

Kawaii

For calling me up out of sudden, and have

 nothing to be told instead of missing me and

 listen to my voice before going to bed...

I never know he could be this cute! OwO;;

Oh dear...He might look like a super

adult on the outside, but actually he's like

a kid in need of love and attention.

Kawaii desu ~~

So I'm gonna give him as much love as he

 needs until he can't finally afford to bear the

 greatness of my overflowing love. 

Gaahahaha :P

Priceless

"I don't care who you are, where you're from,

what you did, as long as you love me..."

Yeah, a famous song from the boy band

Backstreet Boys long ago :D

I want nothing, I never ask for anything,

and I don't care if he's got nothing other

than his own self. 

Cause I love him for what he is, not

what he got. Understood dear? :)

Tears

We fought, we cried. Yeah, we both did.

I thought I was the only one, but

I was not alone..

I shed tears for my dumb act on him. As

 for him, it was because of his repeated 

mistakes on me. 

We cried, not because of our anger,

but in fact the tears came from our regret 

and sadness from hurting our beloved 

ones badly.

It was awful, but by that we knew

that we love each other so much. :')

My Fault

We had argument, and it's all because

of me. I was too selfish and childish..

His rage mode really scared me up 

and I had no idea what to do to make 

him feel better. I was such a failure..

But I'm glad that we somehow manage

to put up things back to normal. T-T

Pain made us grow up, and mistakes

made us improve ourself in a better way.

How I thanked you Allah for giving

us such experience. 

We're still learning to understand each 

other well and today was such an enormous 

experience for both of us..

I hope Allah will always show us the
way and bless us up until forever. :')

Settle Down

What? Now? LMOL

Nooo. There's still a long way to 

go for us both. Haha

But yeah, I'm glad that he's actually 

taking our relationship seriously and even

have me in his future planning. 

Thanx dear :)

I'm also praying that we'll be together

until our hair turn grey. :P

Tom Yam!

So yeah, I love tom yam and tom yam

tastes as great as any food can be! 

But my favourite of all is mushroom

tom yammmm. *Drool*

Omg just look at its reddish coloured

soup. Ahhh!! I miss u so bad tom yam T-T

Too bad I can only eat this at the

restaurant near my college. Now I'm at 

home for two weeks...

And my allowance for the next semester

seems like won't allowing me to

eat tom yam anymore... The price..*sobs*

Tadaima!

So here I am after a few weeks of going

all quiet and no news of me and my life.

It's been a hectic week of things and

events to be attended on and I was fully

tired of all these things. Seriously...

But things aren't going to stop neither

of us to bloom and keep our love on the

track each days. Hee ~

We even got a few conflicts but yeah, 

that's what we called life. Never been too

easy and free after all.

We made mistakes and learned our right

ways from them. We improved and even tried

our best in this long distance relationship.

And since it's holiday, I can be here for 

him as much as he want. No tight schedule

and crappy phone line anymore. Yeah!

And oh, by the way...I've gained 2 kg in

just a week. OMGee. Just what have I

been eating actually? Er... o_O''